I’m not in a very good mindset right now. I grow impatient with people. I am appalled with the behaviors of those around me, even if I share the same ones. I can see through people’s insecurities and irritates me, but breaks my heart at the same time.

I watch people’s actions, they way they tell stories, their excitement, the change in their voices, they way they laugh, complain, pout, worry, doubt, argue, cry, fear, smile, defend themselves, justify themselves, flirt, lie, eat, and drink. I’m no longer viewing them as an individual, but rather a list of characteristics that I pick apart and separate into what I love and hate.

Call me judgmental, a hypocrite, shallow, or maybe even an asshole, but I’m having a hard time controlling it. I think of it more as being observant and analyzing a broader spectrum of things rather than just a name and face. 

I think what upsets me most, is that of all the people I’ve met, there’s only one I can really think of right now that even after all the in depth analysis and attempts to find things I don’t care for, I’m left with a blank. I can’t find anything that is unappealing. or incompatible. That’s so hard for ANYONE to find, and it’s leaving me intrigued, confused, and only wanting to know more.